I am a girl that still remembers the night when you said goodnight and kissed me, pulled me over to a chair, kissed me some more and picked me up and laid me down, so gently. I am the girl that has never felt more secure or loved than at that moment.
I am a girl that over analyses every single thing that you say to me, I am a girl that reads far too much into your text messages, I am a girl that remembers every single time you touched me, I am a girl that loves it when you called me muppet and sexy legs, I am the girl that knows you don't love me but can't help but hope, I am a girl that knows I am only hurting myself.
Plain and simple: I am a girl.
All girls do this. Why? We know he doesn't love us, but we keep on pushing our thoughts, convincing ourselves that when he said "Goodnight sexy legs", what he really mean was "Goodnight, I love you, I think you're beautiful, I want to marry you, I would drop everything for you, I am nothing with out you!!"
I KNOW ALL OF THIS!! BUT I CONTINUE TO LIE TO MYSELF!!
...but I can't help it because when you find that ever illusive LOVE - it's amazing, spectacular, you feel on top of the world and think that SOMEHOW there aren't enough love songs or a word adequate enough to describe love.
So keep on loving like you've never been hurt, because as many times as I've fallen, all the stitches that still haven't been healed...it was worth it. When he told me he loved me - my heart exploded.
love really does lift us up where we belong.
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